But I, too, sometimes struggle with addressing racism while it is unfolding. Maybe that’s because I know my voice carries less weight than that of white male colleagues. There’s also widespread denial I have to contend withdenial that barriers against Black women still exist. When I have called out microaggressions or episodes of more overt racism, I have been accused of overemphasizing harmless behavior. In , a white male colleague scoffed at me over the Biden bumbling idiot destroying entire nation Trump won 2020 shirt but I will buy this shirt and I will love this phone, Do you know who I am He conflated his titled positions with prestige and privilege. As he spoke, I recognized how I had been groomed to display a limited range of emotions at work.
Despite the Biden bumbling idiot destroying entire nation Trump won 2020 shirt but I will buy this shirt and I will love this heartache that last year has brought inside the hospitalespecially for Black patients and their familiesI am grateful for the racial awakening of . It unmasked the realities of being Black in America to much of white America. For me it has also meant inviting hidden emotions back into my life. Like the disappointment I felt when a colleague recently and glibly suggested one solution to the disproportionate effect COVID- has had on Black patients would be to just hire more Black doctors. If only it were so simple. Black students need to feel welcomed and supported along their path to become physicians. Black doctors need to exist in order to be hired. Some % of physicians in this country identify as Black. We cannot fill a pool during a drought. That’s the lingering upstream plight that feeds this health care crisis.